WHEN YOU'RE 20

I finally decided to go blogging again, after more than a year.

GO SEE WHAT YOU NEED TO KNOW WHEN YOU'RE 20.

My Ultimate Dream

Living my life is very easy. You don't have to be very talented, pretty, and intelligent to be me. I grew up being very simple and mediocre, wanting very simple things, dreaming for no grandeur, hoping for no great things. I am very forgettable. I am that wallflower. I am that girl who goes for whatever her parents want, not because she was aversed to do so, but because she has not build dreams for herself, and she's contented with what her parents had build for her. I am that weakling who's just willing to accept and go for everything that the manipulating society dictates. I am very unconfident. I am very quiet and shy. I have no say to anything, because I'm too afraid I might say the wrong thing.

Being in college, I can conclude, has changed my way of thinking about myself. Because of my friends, I learned to laugh and be laughed at. I learned to make independent and somehow wise decisions. I have made someone out of myself--someone who's still sensitive but a lot stronger, someone who still respects her parents say but now's able to merge her own thinking, still quiet and shy but now knows what to say, when to say it, and how to say it. I am still afraid to be wrong, but I am now more confident with what I need to prove both to myself, and to them people.

I entitled this entry as "My Ultimate Dream". Last month my mother gave me a new phone and since it was new, I thought of something to write on it's Greeting Message. I told myself it should be something very inspiring, and something that will brighten and lighten me up. So I decided to write there my ultimate dream, which goes:

Joice Anne E. Carrido, MSPT, PTRP, RPT, DPT

I know it's too dreamy. :) But you know what? I actually had second thoughts. Is this really the ultimate dream? That I have my license here and abroad, and pursue post-graduate studies after? That is very inspiring indeed, but I realized it wasn't my ultimate dream. Of course I want to have all those titles, but more than that, my ultimate dream would be to marry the man I love most, have kids, take care of them, bring them much love, and be the greatest wife and mother to them. In this sense I am still very mediocre, I know.

Let's call him Doc (no he's not a medical doctor, but I believe he soon will have his PhD degree). Eversince this guy loved me, I have asked for nothing. I was really young when he became my friend and "kuya" and since then, I have learned a lot from him, let's say, 80% of everything I believe in right now, was from him. It wasn't the usual love story that you heard of. It wasn't love at first sight, more of love at second sight. But that didn't matter. This guy showed me the greatest, forgiving, unconditional, kindest love I have ever been given. I was just a kid back then, who throws immature tantrums here and there, but he was most patient to me. He consistently loved and respected and trusted me despite all my brat moments.

I have broken every little trust he might have for me, but he was just there, willing to take me again, take care of me, protect me and not let me be hurt by anything and anyone. Being just a kid at 16 made me do the stupidest things a girl could do, but he was more than willing to let me feel that I am still the most important person in this entire world. I have hurt every piece of himself, but he would pick them up, and hug me again as soon as I say I am sorry. And I am really sorry.

Being with him isn't easy. There are lots of things I have to sacrifice. We were a different couple. We're not like the others. Let me put it this way, we're more of long distance relationship. Though not so long, but it's not like we can see each other everyday, or even every other day. In the whole five years, I can still almost count the times we're together in all my digits, or maybe plus one or two persons' digits. That makes every single time with him very very, or even more special.

Having a very busy and intelligent partner is another thing. During our first months, I would always complain about him having no time for me, about him putting me on the very bottom of his priority list. But I learned to be very understanding, and right now, I know that's all he needs. Someone who will stand by him, understand him, support him, and just love him, rain or shine. I am proud that right now, I know he only needs me.

Because Doc and I have our share of age difference, it wasn't easy for people to understand our feelings for each other. I know. I even asked once, how can a university professor be serious in being in a relationship with a post-highschool kid? It wasn't easy, people just always have something to say. But I think we both did a better than good job, because five years is still freaking five years.

Someday, I know, everything will turn into its place. And when that happens, then I can say I wouldn't anymore care about the titles I dream about (ofcourse I would still want them, or maybe i'll get them before this). And then I would change my greeting message to my real ulmitate dream, and that is:

Joice Anne Carrido - [doc'slastnamehere]

p.s. there's more after that. I want to take care of you and our future kids. I just want to love you more.

Paint Me A Happy Smile...

REVIVED.


soon...

IKAW AT AKO

BISITAHIN NYO:

IKAW AT AKO

Twilight Saga Ebook Free Download

I assure you it's FREE and SAFE baby.:-)

I have been looking for some free ebooks for the past weeks and I bumped into this. Thought of hosting the files myself so people like me won't have a hard time downloading them, and have my favorite books' copy on the comfort of my pc or laptop, even my psp. I made too easy you can get it effortlessly and no sweat. Just sit there, click and boom! That's it.

What you need:
1. A computer with Adobe reader
2. An internet connection
3. If you have a PSP, prepare you USB cord/memory card reader

What to do:
1. If you want to download the four books by Stephenie Meyer, click on the following links. It will lead you to the download page. The files are in PDF.

Twilight
New Moon
Eclipse
Breaking Dawn

2. If you want to download a pseudo-ebook format for your PSP, click on the succeeding links. They're in .rar format.

Twilight
New Moon
Eclipse
Breaking Dawn

3. Once download is complete, open the .rar document (eg Twilight.rar) and right click the folder entitled "Twilight", and click "Extract to the specified folder" to extract the files. Choose your destination folder and name it "Twilight". Once complete, you can check the file by clicking on the folder where you save it. Open the folder and you will see .jpg files starting from 0000 Twilight,0000 New Moon, etc... You just have to connect your PSP to your computer and Copy the extracted folder to PSP/Photo (this is why I called it "pseudo-ebook" coz they're actually picture files, and not strictly an ebook. cool huh?)

4. Just make sure you have enough memory on your console, then you can start viewing them for your pleasure :)

5. Say thanks to me, ok? Enjoy!

xoxo,
Joice

p.s. the files are a bit large, and downloading them takes time. but remember, PATIENCE is a virtue! God bless :)

I dont know why

i don't - and never - call him "boyfriend".

she never calls or address me as his "girlfriend", too.

i remember he told his friends.

"si sasap, ang naiibig ko."

cute. :-)

blog transformation

hmmm instead of this blog being dead, i'm actually planning to transform this into an advertisement/review blog/whatever people call it.

i really have no idea how that works, but hey, i' want to try, no harm in that right?

i'm just waiting for some kind of confirmation from reviewme, and indeed i will be active here again :)) not to share personal boos and all but this time to advertise or review, :)

personal blog's over at dhjioisce.multiply.com :)) see yah!

hi friends!

this is an update. :-)

I'M NOT DEAD. swear!

i found my new home at MULTIPLY.

i'm active there, just like the way i was here.

thanks for still visiting this forgotten and rotten blogsite.

you really are true friends! :-)

AGAIN,

add me up at MULTIPLY!

I Can't Forget the Days of Old*

Isa lamang ang blog na ito sa mga channels kung saan naipapahayag ko ang damdamin ko. Dito pwede kong sabihin ang kahit anong gusto ko, at ang bawat opinion ko ay mahalaga. Dito nakakapagtanong ako ng mga bagay na gusto kong malaman, at may mga taong buong pusong sumasagot sa mga inosenteng tanong ko. Dito may saysay kahit ang pinakasimpleng bagay na nagpapatawa sa akin, maging yung mga nakakapagpaluha. Dito hindi ko kelangan mahusgahan bago pakinggan. Dito pwede kong ipagsigawan na masaya ako, o galit ako, o kung anumang emosyon ang nasa loob ko, ng walang pipigil sa akin. Ang blog na ito ay hindi lang isang simpleng blog, online journal, o pagpapapansin, para sa akin. Ang blog na ito ay isang kaibigan.

Nagsimula akong magsulat dahil gusto kong magsulat. At patuloy akong nagsulat dahil yun ang gusto ko…

Isa, dalawa, tatlo, o mas marami pang beses na sumagi sa isip kong tumigil sa pagba-blog. Maraming mas importanteng bagay kesa magblog ako. Maraming mas kelangan ayusin kesa sa layout ng blog na ito. Maraming mas kelangan alamin kesa sa kung paano mag-edit ng xml. Maraming mas sensible na bagay kesa makipag-ex links. Pero pinili ko pa ring magblog, makipag-ex links, at gumawa ng sarili kong layout. Bakit? Kagaya pa rin ng unang dahilan ko. Kase gusto ko.

Marami akong nakilala dahil sa blog na ito. Yung iba, naituring ko ng kaibigan, kahit hindi ko pa sila nakikilala sa totoong buhay. Sila yung nakialam sa mga sinabi ko, nagsulat ng mga bagay na kinapulutan ko ng aral, o simpleng nagpatawa sa akin. Sila yung ilan sa mga taong unconsciously ay ineencourage akong kaligtaan ang pag-aaral at magblog na lamang. Hehe. Pero higit sa lahat, sila yung mga taong kagaya ko, marami ring gustong sabihin, at gusto ring mapakinggan. Kagaya ko, minsan ay wala ring magawa.

Sa mahigit isang taon kong pagiging blogger, nagkaron ako ng mga paboritong blog, at kapwa ko bloggers din. At gusto ko kayong pasalamatan sa lahat, lalo na sa pagiging mahalagang parte ng buhay blogger ko. Kay Angelique, Anino, April, Ate May Ann, Badoodles, Benjie, Elay, Emmyrose, FerBert, Gasti, Gdwn, Holy Kamote, Igno, Jake, Jazzy, Khitee, Kim, Kuya Jonathan, Lingling, Mia, Mhaye, Neah, Noime, PB, Poli, Redlan, Scarlett, at sa lahat ng nasa listahan ng links ko---salamat sa inyong lahat.

Hindi ko alam kung pano ko sasabihin ng diretso ang point ng post na ito. Pero gusto ko talagang magpasalamat sa lahat ng mga taong nag push sa akin magpatuloy sa blogging. Siguro naman ay naipahayag ko na kung gaano ito kahalaga sa akin. Pero ganun ata talaga, pagbabago ang tanging bagay na hindi mawawala sa buhay. At aminin natin, lahat ng bagay, maliit man o malaki, importante man o hindi, ay nagbabago. At siguro mas mahirap tanggapin ay ang pagbabagong nangyayari sa mga tao sa paligid natin. At madalas ang mga pagbabagong yun ang talagang nakakaapekto sa mga desisyon natin sa buhay.

Maraming ng nagbago simula nung nag-umpisa akong magblog. Siguro kasama na dun ang pag-mamature ko unti unti, at pagrealize na talagang walang bagay na maaari at kaya nating panghawakan habangbuhay. Isa na dun ang blog na ito… Hindi ko alam kung mapapanindigan ko ang pag-iwan sa blog ko, pero sigurado akong hindi na ito magiging kagaya ng dati. Kahit pa maayos ang lahat sa buhay ko, hindi na ako magkakaron ng kalayaang sabihin lahat ng iniisip ko, at magpanggap na may alam. Hindi ko na maibabalik ang dating passion ko sa pagba-blog.

Marami akong nasaktan, maging ang sarili ko, marami akong naging kasalanan sa maraming tao. At sa lahat ng yun… Alam ni God kung anong nasa loob ko. Pagkatapos ng lahat Sya lang naman talaga ang nakakaalam.

Kung may makakamiss sa akin, salamat. Mamimiss ko rin kayo. Susubukan kong ipagpatuloy ang pagkakaibigang nabuo dito sa online life ko. Hindi lang ito virtual, dahil para sa akin, isa ito sa pinakamalaki at pinakatotoong barkadang nabuo ko. Mahal ko kayo.

Hanggang sa susunod na kabanata, blogosphere.

*If I Were You, Tamia

Final Exams

FINALS MO AY GANITO? TALON KA NA LANG!
by: gel_eee (dg.up.edu.ph)

WORLD HISTORY
Describe the history of the papacy from its origins to the present
day, concentrating especially, but not exclusively, on its social,
political, economic, religious, and philosophical impact on Europe,
Asia, America, and Africa. Be brief and concise, yet specific.

ASTRONOMY
Define the universe; give three examples.

MEDICINE
You will be provided with a razor blade, a piece of gauze, and a
bottle of Scotch. Remove your appendix. Do not suture until your work
has been inspected. You have 15 minutes.

COMPUTER SCIENCE
Write a fifth-generation computer language. Using this language,
create a computer program to finish the rest of this exam for you.

PUBLIC SPEAKING
Twenty-five hundred riot-crazed aborigines are storming the
classroom. Calm them. You may use any ancient language except Latin,
Hebrew, or Greek.

CIVIL ENGINEERING
This is a practical test of your design and building skills. With the
boxes of toothpicks and glue present, build a platform that will
support your weight when you and your platform are suspended over a
vat of nitric acid.

MECHANICAL ENGINEERING
The disassembled parts of a howitzer have been placed in a box on
your desk. You will also find an instruction manual, printed in
Swahili. In 10 minutes a hungry Bengal tiger will be admitted to the
room. Take whatever action you feel is appropriate. Be prepared to
justify your decision.

ELECTRICAL ENGINEERING
You will be placed in a nuclear reactor and given a partial copy of
the electrical layout. The electrical system has been tampered with.
You have seventeen minutes to find the problem and correct it before
the reactor melts down.

BIOLOGY
Create life. Estimate the differences in subsequent human culture if
this form of life had developed 500,000 years earlier, with special
attention to the probable effect, if any, on the Philippine social
spectrum circa 1640. Prove your thesis.

RELIGION
Perform a miracle. Creativity will be judged.

MUSIC
Write a full piano concerto. Orchestrate and perform it with a flute
and drum. You will find a piano under your seat.

LOGIC
Take a position for or against truth. Prove the validity of your
position.

CHEMISTRY
You must identify a poison sample which you will find at your lab
table. All necessary equipment has been provided. There are two
beakers at your desk, one of which holds the antidote. If the wrong
substance is used, it causes instant death. You may begin as soon as
the professor injects you with a sample of the poison.

PSYCHOLOGY
Based on your knowledge of their early works, evaluate the emotional
stability, degree of adjustment, and repressed frustrations of each
of the following: Alexander of Aphrodisias, Ramses II, Gregory of
Nicea, and Hammurabi. Support your evaluations with quotations from
each man's work, making appropriate references. Translate all
quotations in Tagalog.

SOCIOLOGY
Identify the sociological problems which might be associated with the
end of the world. Construct an experiment to test your theory.

ECONOMICS
Describe in four hundred words or less what you would have done to
prevent the Great Depression.

MATHEMATICS
You have 60 seconds to mentally solve the mathematical problem below.
Begin. 8,256.091 + _________ - ________ x ________ ¸ ________ = -
38.07623
(Bonus question: Why is 11 not pronounced onety one? Provide a full
numerical analysis in justifying your answer.)

POLITICAL SCIENCE
There is a red telephone on the desk beside you. Start World War III.
Report at length on its socio-political effects, if any.

ART
Given one eight-count box of crayons and three sheets of notebook
paper, recreate the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel. Skin tones should
be true to life.

PHYSICS
Explain the nature of matter. Include in your answer an in-depth
evaluation of the impact of the development of mathematics on
science.

METAPHYSICS
Describe in detail the nature of life after death. Test your
hypothesis.

PHILOSOPHY
Sketch the development of human thought. Estimate its significance.
Compare with the development of any other kind of thought.

GENERAL KNOWLEDGE
Describe in detail. Be objective and specific.